I had lunch with my dear friend Bonnie today. In between bites of our delicious mexican food, we poured over old bead catalogs in hopes of finding the right beads for a new beading project. As I was explaining the difference between different grades of pearls to her, she commented that I looked so happy about my beads. And you know what?! I am happy!! Happy about beads and everything that goes with them. And despite my sometimes reluctance to really embrace it fully, I am happy with what God has called me to do with my beads.
When I was growing up, I had no idea what I wanted to be. In the third grade, it was a toss-up between a 911 dispatcher and a storm chaser (I guess that came from being raised in tornado alley!). In the fifth grade, my hot pink lipstick inspired my soul and I was just sure I would grow up to be a cosmetologist. Seriously!! In high school I decided to become an elementary school music teacher...until I remembered that I would have to listen to hours of beginner trumpet and violin lessons. YIKES!!! And in college, I wanted to moved to a third world country and be a missionary to their people.
After three long, hot months in the barrios of Ciudad Juarez, Mexico the summer after my senior year in college, my vision of missions had changed drastically. While I still had a heart for missions, I didn't know what I supposed to do with my life. All I really knew is that I wanted to be happy and make others happy.
When I was in high school, I can remember talking to a friend about passions in life. He said something that stuck with me, and today at lunch it came back to me. He said that you will always know the exact moment when you discover someone's passion in life...their eyes light up, they break into a grin, and you realize you are about to hear everything they know about that subject :)
That was me at lunch today...the babbling idiot who would have told anyone who would listen about my love of beads and where they came from and how they are made...or how to pick the right clasp...how happy I was with my new jewelry orders and where my jewelry is headed.
I may not know exactly what I am supposed to be "when I grow up," but what I do know is this: God has called me to make jewelry. And it makes me happy. And I think it makes other people happy too, because it is a way for me to show them His love in a very real way. So even though I might not fully understand this road I am traveling down, I will continue to make jewelry for myself and others. And trust that when the time is right, God will continue to show me exactly what I am to be and do.
And since it is New Years Eve, I will mention that one of my resolutions (I very rarely ever make them so listen up!!) is to blog more. I want to discuss all kinds of things...jewelry, beauty, fashion, life, love, etc. So I hope you will join me for the ride.
Happy New Year